I noticed (as did my mom) that many of my recent posts involve the word suck. Life does not suck, it’s just that in a life that is generally quite good, the things that go wrong tend to stand out more than the things that are just slightly above the medium level of greatness.
The transition out of college continues to amaze me even though it has been 4 months since I last saw the inside of a classroom. Success is much less measurable when there aren’t things being returned to you with evaluations on easy to understand scales.
Congratulations on your improvement in learning new marketable skills, you’ve brought yourself up to a 92.5. Unfortunately due to the fact that you aren’t calling your friends your Social Skills have dropped to a 67, if you don’t get off your lazy butt, you’re going to do terrible on the final.
And yet, despite the flux, I feel like i’m getting the better end of the stick.
I feel like i manage to not ever be photographed. I either show up at the party before or after the shutterbug, or maybe I’m part vampire and don’t show up in many of the pictures that are taken of me. The more likely explanation is that the social circles I’m in aren’t generally big photographers. Either way, I feel like I’m missing out on future opportunities to look back on my wasted youth.
I’m acutely aware of the lack of pictures of me in a sufficiently large number of awkward BYX events, or minorly injuring myself bike riding, or working at my desk at amazon, or my desk at microsoft, or with any of the people at Austin Capital, or hanging at Matt’s place, or sitting with a laptop in Dan Brown’s living room, or playing poker at the Mansion, or smoking cigars on Travis Pry’s porch, or drinking wine with Marcoux when we were roommates, or burning cedars at the Lemmon homestead (is it now the Lemmon ranch? (that sounds like a salad dressing)) or sitting at Einsteins with Murk, or chilling with Telschow on a Wednesday (except that real awkward one), or sailing the boat with Mac (somewhere pictures of this exist). Some of those are moments I’m looking forward to having again, but others are gone.