Wow, when things happen they sure like to happen faster than I can keep up. Suddenly I find myself completely alone. Waking up at 4am I drove my father to the airport so he could go on vacation with the rest of my family, now the house is completely empty. Matt’s still in Santa Cruz, Laura’s now gone to LA with Mel. Of course nothing underscores loneliness like contemplation of death. Early this morning 4 Jesuit students were in a bad accident leaving 1 dead and 2 in critical condition. The one fatality regularly attended my youth group. I’ve rarely felt so alone in my life.
Going back to Austin is no longer an abstract idea far off on the horizon, it’s no longer 2 months or 4 weeks, but rather next saturday. It’s starting to hit me that the summer is over, and looking back I didn’t make as much of it as I could. This naturally has me feeling even more down.
Good things happening: Nothing brings together people like a tragedy. Today at the vigil mass I got a chance to catch up with old friends who I hadn’t seen in a while. As much as realizing that I leave next saturday has me regreting the summer, I get to look forward to a new semester, with new roommates, new classes, new opportunities and new friends. I also get to look forward to all the old friends reminiscing about old memories (no John I’m not calling you old, I’m distinguishing between friends I already know and friends I have yet to meet). Fall 04, won’t have anything on Spring 04 (flashes the Spring ‘04 hand sign).